Doubting Thomas
I've turned into a doubter!! It hurts me to say that because it means I lack faith.
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
Hebrews 11:6 (nkjv)
I know that I am saved but something in my head is like are you sure? Would you really be struggling with something like that if you were?
What brought this on? Good question because I have no idea!!! It could be the creepy old guy following me around at work, it could be my dreams, or it could be the fact I feel like poop!!! I don't know but I hate the fact that I feel like I walk around everyday with the word shame written across my face! I know I've been forgiven of sins so why am I still feeling guilty about them?
according to my earnest expectation and hope that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but with all boldness, as always so now also Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.
Philippians 1:20-21 (nkjv)
Okay I'm not done that was just one topic...
Contenment, I know that probably has something to do with doubting but seriously I'm ready to leave College Station! I hate the five fifteen traffic from everyone getting off of work!! I hate the eight o clock traffic from everyone going to work!! I hate a&m even though I'm going there!! I hate College Station even though I'm stuck in the middle of it going through life....
Someone once told me that the Lord wasn't going to allow me to go anywhere until I was completely content in him, then this person went on to explain to me that if I left and moved to Japan that I would just become uncontent and get restless.
I'm beginning to think that, that statment is true.... I'm not supposed to be content in my circumstantces but in the Lord!
Then his wife said to him, " Do you still hold fast to your integirty? Curse God and die!" But he said to her, " You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God and shall we not accept adversity? In all this Job did not sin with his lips.
Job 2:9-10
So there you go..... that's what's going on in my head tonight......
Labels: Faith
posted by Hosey's blog @ 6:52 PM
2 Comments
2 Comments:
Howdy Chiquita!
Be encouraged. That was a good word about contentment. And contentment does not come easy. We have to LEARN it (see Phil. 4), but once we learn it (and keep learning) all things are possible for us (Phil 4:13)
If we are unhappy with what we have (and where we are), we will never be happy with what we get (or where we go).
Grow closer to him... maybe it's your restlessness that is leading to your confusion. If you are not trusting him and his time, obeying him where you are, that sin will mess up your fellowship with God (the realtionship will always be there - but disobedience hinders communication). Rest in him and we will continue to pray for you.... You Rock!
-bg
Hey Melissa!! We are bloggers now!
I'm adding you to my buddies!
Love,
Carissa
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